Episode #7

[Adam Gentry]

Well, that round just went swimmingly for my original tribe. The issue lays in the position I'm getting myself into though!

I think after feeling like I was completely screwed, I've reversed it a bit, and might have myself in a position where I'm going to have to make some really tough decisions that will affect the course of the game and get people out who may have wanted to actually help me in this game.

I am not complaining about that though. More friends is better than none. WAY better than none. I want to keep as many paths open as I possibly can in this game, and I believe I've been setting myself up really well to get far in this game. Getting to the END of it though, now THAT is where the problems set it. I need to really also consider what end of the few ends I can hopefully choose from is the one I want.

I think at some point the decision whether Gnas or Babs ultimately fill the majority of this end game will lay on my shoulders if I'm able to maneuver things in that manner I have thus far...and that will be extremely tough decision If I'm lucky enough to be the one to make it.

[Adam Gentry]

So, I'm basically awesome.

Though, I did only just beat Tom, who, I think isn't exactly the most amazing specimen to beat, but I will take what I can get when I can get it. Being part of my old team was essentially loss after loss, so actually scoring a point for my team, against Tom, makes me feel at least a little taste of redemption. A sip from the ol' redemption canteen, I suppose.

However, even if my tribe loses overall, I really just cared about proving myself just a bit. To myself as a matter of fact. I know for sure if I'm going to win this game I need to create more of a persona. I need people to start saying "oh my god, you heard about that Adam guy, like oh my god, you heard about him though?".

I don't really know why they would be having a conversation nearly anything like that, but that's metaphorically what I want to happen, lol.

That's all for now though. I think either way the tide turns, someone is going to go on either tribe who I hold no investment in, making the next phase more full of options, and more crowded with me having to disappoint people as well. But if I have a path to the end, that's what I care about, even if I need to make a few people bitch and moan on the way there. It's so bad to cut bridges in this game, but...if you don't build a bunch of them in the first place, it'll just be you on an island...waiting to get that boot up your ass. I don't want no boot up my ass. So I'll just open up as many avenues as I can now that merge is creeping ever closer.

[Adam Gentry]

The situation going on in this challenge is completely bizarre. It seems to me like there is throwing from both sides, because at this point there are a lot of people who are terrified of their position and need to be saved, and just as many people who want to save friends yonder, and are extremely confident in their position where they stand.

For me, I am very confident with where I stand here, lol, but I don't want people outside of my tribe, or hell, I don't want even people like Chad to realize that I feel confident over here. I want people to think that I'm scared, and am fighting hard for immunity cause I believe that I need it. I really don't think I do quite frankly though, because I've been working myself around here and making sure that the Adam love is strong (yes I did just refer to myself AS Adam, lol).

For now, I'm going to just wait for this challenge to happen, and not even care which way the tides turns, because either way someone insignificant to me will likely be the target, and if that's the case...I don't care if it goes here or there. It's not important to me, or AT LEAST, I hope that my inclinations that it doesn't really matter for me are correct. So...for now I'm just gonna chill, starve a little here on the beach, and just relax cause nothing good comes out of freaking out and being paranoid when you don't have to be. SURE, cockiness, or getting too comfortable is equally as risky, but I really do think I've found my way SOMEHOW in this new camp to a spot where I might actually have power, if not at least safety.