Post by Parvati Shallow on Sept 1, 2011 1:53:05 GMT -5
well i have been doing some thinking, and i wanted to post it here because if i post it later it will look like i made this up, and i didn't.
But here is my thoughts.
i know that i am a good player. no, this was not my strongest game, because its plain to see that every move i tried to make got shut down by Ash's alliance. they controlled everything, and nat and barbie both lied their faces off to me and got me to do what they wanted. I will admit that, no problem. I was loyal to Nat because i wanted to run the game with her, and in the end it turns out that our alliance from day one was trumped by her alliance from day zero (or i guess day minus one). I could of run this game, if the pregame did not exist. But my point is that i do not have to win this game to know that i am a good player. Ive won other games, and i dont need this one.
I think that for whatever reason, Erin wants to win this game super badly. she wanted it so bad that she got a bunch of friends to help her out, which to me shows that she did not have the confidence in herself to play a fair game. and, quite frankly, if you cant play the game without needing someone else to help you, then you dont know that youre good enough to win on your own. And if Erin wants to win this game so badly that she needed to play that way, and to fight this hard, and to get as angry as she has gotten, and say all of the mean and nasty things she has said to me and about me in this TC, then frankly I would rather see her win it, because it means so much to her. I think she needs it a lot more than i do.
Dont get me wrong. I am a fighter and I will fight to win, because that is what a good player does. But there are a lot of things I could of said in response to some of her hypocritical statements that i have decided instead to keep to myself, because after a certain point, things just get ugly and mean, and thats not what any of us want to see. But its worth pointing out that if you actually take the time to compare what she says, she contradicts herself a LOT (good example: I say every juror that I voted for is someone who personally did something to make me not trust them. Ashley says thats true for her to. I say oh really, what did Adam and Andrea do to make you not trust them? She says that Adam wasnt in her original alliance and Barbie wasnt good at challenges. Umm... how is that breaking your trust?), and ignores me every time I prove her wong.
Anyways if I dont win, im not going to go away thinking that im bad. Im going to go away knowing that I played the best game i could play, and that i have nothing to be ashamed of. Sure I got played, but I got played because everybody i trusted had already decided to play the game based on previous relationships. That doesnt mean im a bad player, it means i dont have a time machine. i specifically chose not to play that kind of game, because i know that i am good enough not to have to.
And, Erin, Im sure when you read this after the game youre just going to laugh and say youre a great player and you know it, and im pathetic or whatever. Thats fine. Im not really concerned about your opinion anyway.
But here is my thoughts.
i know that i am a good player. no, this was not my strongest game, because its plain to see that every move i tried to make got shut down by Ash's alliance. they controlled everything, and nat and barbie both lied their faces off to me and got me to do what they wanted. I will admit that, no problem. I was loyal to Nat because i wanted to run the game with her, and in the end it turns out that our alliance from day one was trumped by her alliance from day zero (or i guess day minus one). I could of run this game, if the pregame did not exist. But my point is that i do not have to win this game to know that i am a good player. Ive won other games, and i dont need this one.
I think that for whatever reason, Erin wants to win this game super badly. she wanted it so bad that she got a bunch of friends to help her out, which to me shows that she did not have the confidence in herself to play a fair game. and, quite frankly, if you cant play the game without needing someone else to help you, then you dont know that youre good enough to win on your own. And if Erin wants to win this game so badly that she needed to play that way, and to fight this hard, and to get as angry as she has gotten, and say all of the mean and nasty things she has said to me and about me in this TC, then frankly I would rather see her win it, because it means so much to her. I think she needs it a lot more than i do.
Dont get me wrong. I am a fighter and I will fight to win, because that is what a good player does. But there are a lot of things I could of said in response to some of her hypocritical statements that i have decided instead to keep to myself, because after a certain point, things just get ugly and mean, and thats not what any of us want to see. But its worth pointing out that if you actually take the time to compare what she says, she contradicts herself a LOT (good example: I say every juror that I voted for is someone who personally did something to make me not trust them. Ashley says thats true for her to. I say oh really, what did Adam and Andrea do to make you not trust them? She says that Adam wasnt in her original alliance and Barbie wasnt good at challenges. Umm... how is that breaking your trust?), and ignores me every time I prove her wong.
Anyways if I dont win, im not going to go away thinking that im bad. Im going to go away knowing that I played the best game i could play, and that i have nothing to be ashamed of. Sure I got played, but I got played because everybody i trusted had already decided to play the game based on previous relationships. That doesnt mean im a bad player, it means i dont have a time machine. i specifically chose not to play that kind of game, because i know that i am good enough not to have to.
And, Erin, Im sure when you read this after the game youre just going to laugh and say youre a great player and you know it, and im pathetic or whatever. Thats fine. Im not really concerned about your opinion anyway.
