Well I can't exactly go as myself here, especially being on a tribe with Tom and potential others that know me. If I came as Erin I'm sure it'd take people five minutes to find out and sink my ship. Strong or not, people don't want a former winner on their tribe, just look at All-Stars. Anyway...
The immunity challenge has come and gone and I got the grand total of ELEVEN flowers, which is well, just absolutely brilliant. What makes it even greater is that ten of my eleven came from
Natalie, which means only one other person on my tribe gave me flowers, and even then it was only one. Fuckers. In a way it’s good that I didn’t get too many flowers because that means I’m obviously not on people’s minds or radars yet in the game, but for the same reason, that also puts me in a bad spot.
I was supposed to get three flowers from
Tom, and of course he lied, no surprise there. This will only give me ammunition against him in the future though.
Amber also got to me on AIM yesterday and was saying how she hadn’t talked to anyone and would give me so many flowers, another lie. Like, jesus christ people, why do you have the urge to just lie right out of the gate, like hold that shit in for a round. I mean, christ, all I wanted was some flowers.
We then followed to tribal, where of course I had to lie my ass off. Of course the number of flowers people got reflects where loyalties are and who has high standing in this tribe, but I can’t let people know I’m thinking that way. I mean I’m already a target as it is, considering
Tom and
Chad tried to round up
Natalie and
Parvati, proceed to make an alliance, and then try and throw the vote on me, instead of
Amber. UGH.
Natalie told me she pulled
Parvati aside and told her not to vote for me though and go for
Ozzy, but it doesn’t help that
Natalie was supposed to give
Parvati 10 flowers,
Parvati proceeded to find out, and Natalie had to say she “forgot.” Whatever works. I guess it does though and the trust is there considering that
Parvati told
Natalie the prize was a double vote.
Going back to
Parvati I went and talked to her last night, calling her Miss Popularity, and talked with her for a while,
kissing ass, because I really need to do that until I’m in good standing with these people. She brushed it off and was all dumb about it, which makes me think she’s much smarter than she let’s on. So following her cue I’m going ditzy and unassuming, even though I know a bunch of people are after my ass and I could potentially be the first person out, god, how embarrassing would that be.
So I just have to hope for the best and hope that the majority is for
Ozzy, and not actually me. Ew this confessional is a hot mess, and I hate it.